I’m in a funk.
There, I said it.
The first step is acknowledgement, right?
I am stressed about work. This past week, a few things happened that were extremely frustrating, upsetting, not fair…Yes, I know life is not fair but still. I do not want to dwell, because it is all out of my control, but I’m having a hard time with acceptance. I’ll get there but sometimes things just plain suck. ( Sorry so cryptic).
I’m not sure why my POTS symptoms are acting up; especially the one that makes my legs and feet swell and look like blueberries. The only thing I can think of is the cold I am fighting mixed with the stress I am feeling mixed with the weather changes are causing my blood to pool and my POTS to flare.
This gloomy weather is not helping. A little sunshine would go a long way. I think it’s time to break out my sun lamp.
When Brad comes home stressed or upset about something, I always make him give me a list of 5 positives in his life. I am a firm believer that when times get tough, it is so important to focus on the blessings we do have.
So here it goes. It’s time to practice what I preach. It’s time to turn this mood around. It’s time to get my head on straight.
It’s time for me to choose the positive.
1. My support system is amazing. I don’t know another word for it. I never feel alone, and that in itself is something that is worthy of waking up everyday and thanking my lucky stars that I have people in my life who always, always have my back. That includes my incredible family, friends, and all of you.
2. I am able to work in a job that I love, despite the fact that blood may be pooling in my legs. I am able to exercise to make my legs stronger. I have a medical team that will help me figure out the many confusing parts that EDS and Dysautonomia often bring. I do not have to do it by myself.
3. I am doing something I am so passionate about, by planning this benefit with an incredible team of people. I am meeting so many inspirational people; people who I would have never met if I had not gotten sick.
I’m starting to see a theme as I type…the beautiful relationships in my life. That is what it’s all about at the end of the day, right?
4. I get to see my family in 5 days at my cousin’s wedding. If anyone is able to de-funk me, it is these people. I can’t wait to laugh until it hurts, and celebrate with my Mom’s side of the family. Best birthday present ever.
5. I have my GOOD health.
And when all else fails, there is always Prozac and retail therapy
It’s time to smile.
It’s time to shine.
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