Just a "zebra" trying my best to live life to the fullest with EDS and POTS...and loving the ride.

Too Much

Written by Katie. Posted in About Me, Challenges

WARNING: Borderline whiny post ahead due to exhaustion.

I’m not sure how to balance my life right now.

I am trying my best to put all that I have into teaching my class.

I am spending tomorrow morning with my staff at a retreat.  Saturday mornings are always when I try to “catch up on life.”

I am signing up for a college reading class I have to take to get my Professional Teaching Certificate.

I have to double up on the amount of physical therapy sessions I am doing because my hip is giving me fits.

I am working so many hours putting together an event for charity.  (Will reveal soon.  I pinky swear).

I am having trouble sleeping.

I did not keep up on the amount of home rehab I needed to do this week.

I am failing at keeping my website updated.

I have so many emails I need to answer.

My principal wants to send me to an upcoming weekend reading conference, which is exciting, but I just don’t know if my body can handle it.  Weekends mean recovery for me.  I hate having to admit that to her.

My heart rate has been really high.  My blood pressure has been super low.

I have been super POTSy.

I’m crashing.  I can feel it.  I know I need to listen to my body, but I am not sure how, with everything that needs to get done.

I have brought a lot of this on myself.  I know I have.  I also know that it doesn’t help that I am a control freak and like to do things myself.

I know it will all get done.  But tonight everything seems too much to handle.

First and foremost, I need a good night’s sleep.

That would make a huge difference in making life seem more manageable.

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Comments (5)

  • Steph

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    Hello my dear… I’m struggling with a lot of this stuff also… must just be one of those weeks. The insomnia, BP, joint pain, and trying to live your life the way you really want to while fighting against the frustration that is POTS. Not easy at all. The fatigue and weakness is what really bothers me… having POTS is exhausting. I’m tired of having to think so carefully about my health… the Spoon Theory really applies right now. But… we’ll both get there, Katie. One day, we’ll be experts at this chronic illness thing. It just takes time and patience… a lot of it. Until then, we’ll just have to hold fun awareness events and get by the best we can. 🙂 Hang in there, fellow zebra. 🙂 Cant wait to hear about this charity event!!!

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  • Sara

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    How can I help? Seriously. Just call, text, or message me.

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  • Meghan

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    Hang in there girl! Remember you have an awesome supportive family and friends surrounding you….utilize them and don’t be afraid to be assertive and confident when asking for help!

    Love you, love you

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  • Rene'

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    I am sorry that you are feeling overwhelmed. 🙁 Things will smooth over-you’ll see! You are never far from my thoughts. 🙂

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  • LeAnna

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    Katie I know it gets frustrating when you can’t do all the things you want to do. I have to remind myself daily what I have accomplished and try to be satisfied with that. It is hard to admit when something is too much that seems simple to others. Today I really wanted to play in the snow with my kiddo but I am so worn out after going out with him. After a 3 hour nap I’m still tired and dizzy. We are in this together. Try to say no when you need to. I know this is extremely difficult and it took me years to admit this to others.

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